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Desert Island Discs
Presented by Lauren Laverne
BBC international editor and war reporter, best known for covering the Middle East and his award-winning interview with President Assad of Syria.
Eight records
Let's Stay Together, Al Green, because it reminds me of Sarajevo, the war in in Bosnia. I had this bulletproof Land Rover and I would drive it. There was a backway, but it became too tedious to go that way. So I'd drive down the main road, and I had a cassette of Al Green. And if I put on this track and drove at the correct pace, I could get from the TV station to the Holiday Inn.
Symphony No. 2 in E-flat major, Op. 63Favourite
Well, it's Elgar's second symphony, and I've chosen this 'cause it does remind me of my father. He was the most musical person of my parents and in our family used to sing in a choir. ... He also asked for the second movement to be played at his funeral. So for me, yeah, it does remind me of my dad.
Piano Concerto No. 2 in C minor, Op. 18
Vladimir Ashkenazy, London Symphony Orchestra
I first heard this piece of music, or a fragment of it, after the terrible tragedy of the Lockerbie attacks, where a jumber jet came down on this Scottish town. ... one of my colleagues played The very famous piano refrain from Ratmaninov's second piano concerto. I said, Blimey, that's nice. What's that? He said, Haven't you heard it? It's really famous. And so when I got home, I bought a CD and I listened to it.
on family trips, used to play Simon and Garfunkel quite a lot, still doing the car. And I went to university as a postgraduate graduate school in the US. And I remember one trip particularly. I'd been to see a friend in Chicago and it was the winter. I was on a Greyhound bus going back overnight to Washington DC where I was a student. And I bought myself a Walkman, well a kind of imitation Walkman, and I had a Simon and Garfunkel cassette. And I remember looking out over the frozen wastes of the Midwest. And this was playing.
Plácido Domingo and Montserrat Caballé
I spent a year as a postgraduate at university in Italy, in Bologna. I shared a flat with three guys ... One of the things that students did in Bologna at that time was there was a great opera house, the Teatro Comunale, and you could get subsidized season tickets, and they would have a quite a lot of intervals, and we would have a bottle of the local sparkling wine, which is called pinoletto, in every interval. So we're quite, we enjoyed it no end. We had a great time. And so from La Bohème, Puccini's La Bohème, O suave fanciulla, which is one of the great songs of opera.
Berlin Philharmonic Orchestra, conducted by Herbert von Karajan
memories of Baghdad during the war of 1991. There were three of us in our office. My esteemed BBC colleague Alan Little, good friend. Rory Peck was the cameraman. Rory had a knackered old cassette player with about three home recorded tapes. It was all the music we had. And in the evening, when we'd more or less finished and we were trying to cook something on a horrible primer stove and bombing was going on outside, the windows were shaking, you could see the tracer. And we'd play this music. And the one I liked best of Rory's crap collection of tapes was the Brahms German Requiem, and particularly the section where it's all flesh is grass.
When I was a small kid, we lived in part of Cardiff called Whitchurch, and my dad had this gramophone. And they had a whole lot of records, a lot of them were 78s from the 50s. But they did buy a copy of Hard Day's Night, which we played no end. And I always remember the smell of that. You lifted the lid of the gramophone, and they had this smell of dust and green bays that was on the inside, and probably a bit of wood or something, and you'd turn it on, and there'd be this thrum as the valves inside warmed up. And I haven't actually chosen something from Hard Days' Night. I've chosen In My Life by the Beatles because it reminds me of that time when I was a kid, and I like listening to it.
When I first came to live in London, I lived in North London when I was a student. Then I was abroad for a few years and I came back and temporarily moved to South London. That's about 40 years ago, and I'm still there. ... I'm choosing as my final record Waterloo Sunset by the Kinks because there isn't one called Camberwell Sunset where I live but Waterloo is quite close.
The keepsakes
The book
The Collected Works of George Orwell
George Orwell
Not that relaxing, but immensely stimulating.
The luxury
A manual typewriter with paper, ribbons, and Tipp-Ex
I'd like to take that with paper, ribbons, tipx, and I'll try and maybe write that novel that I've been meaning to write and haven't quite got around to yet.
In conversation
Presenter asks
What impact does reporting wars in real time on social media have on the way you work and your approach?
I think it's made journalists themselves more exposed. It's more dangerous, I think. ... I think when I started it was much easier to be seen as a non combatant. ... But I think they weren't targets in the same way that they can be now.
Presenter asks
Are you scared in a way you didn't used to be when you go to a conflict zone?
This may sound a bit weird, but I don't get scared so much. I'm familiar with the pattern of emotions. The day before you go, I think, oh my god, what am I doing? ... And then you've got this conflict of wanting to get and do the story, but also thinking, oh my god, this might be awful. But I know from experience it's never quite as bad when you get there.
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BBC Sounds, Music, Radio Podcasts. Hello, I'm Lauren Laverne, and this is the Desert Island Discs Podcast. Every week, I ask my guests to choose the eight tracks, book, and luxury they'd want to take with them if they were cast away to a desert island. And, for rights reasons, the music is shorter than the original broadcast. I hope you enjoy listening.
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My castaway this week is the journalist Jeremy Bowen. He's the BBC's international editor and has been reporting stories from the world's conflict zones for over 30 years. He's covered wars in Iraq, Bosnia, Chechnya, and most recently Ukraine, but he's most closely associated with the Middle East, where he was a correspondent for many years. With his trademark moustache often teamed with a bulletproof vest, he distilled the complexities of the region for audiences back home, making himself a household name in the process. His work has won him a shelf full of prizes, including a Royal Television Society Award for Interview of the Year for his encounter with President Assad of Syria. It's a world away from his early life in Cardiff, where he developed his nose for a story. His mother was a press photographer and his father a reporter. He cites his father's coverage of the Abervan disaster in 1966 as proof that empathy is just as important as bravery when breaking a story. He says doing a job in a war zone, handling it well and coming out alive can give a person the confidence to face anything for a while. Do too much of it and it will destroy you, if not physically, then mentally. Jeremy Bowen, welcome to Desert Island Discs.
Jeremy Bowen
Thank you very much. It's great to be here. I'm very excited.
Presenter
So last year, Jeremy, you started debt reporting from Ukraine and increasingly wars fought in public, in real time, minute by minute on social media these days. It's not even just about that twenty four hour news cycle. What impact does that have on the way that you work and on your approach?
Jeremy Bowen
I think it's made journalists themselves more exposed. It's more dangerous, I think.
Presenter
Made the job more dangerous.
Jeremy Bowen
I think so, because people want to influence. Knocking off a journalist might be if you're unscrupulous, might be one way of doing it. You certainly get a lot of publicity. And I think when I started
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It was much easier to be seen as a non combatant. In El Salvador we used to wave white flags and people would stop shooting and let us cross the road.
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You'd never, ever, ever do that. And we didn't have flat jackets and things. Of course people did get killed then.
Presenter
Mm-hmm.
Jeremy Bowen
But I think they weren't targets in the same way that they can be now.
Presenter
Does it mean that when you do go there you're you're scared in a way that you didn't used to be?
Jeremy Bowen
This may sound a bit weird, but I don't get
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Scared so much. I'm familiar with the pattern of emotions.
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The day before you go, I think, oh my god, what am I doing? When you're getting your stuff together, checking my flak jackets where it should be and I've got my blast boxes, which are Kevlar underwear that people have taken to wearing these days. And then you've got this conflict of wanting to get and do the story, but also thinking, oh my god, this might be awful. But I know from experience it's never quite as bad when you get there.
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Underwear.
Presenter
I think you reckon this is something like your twentieth conflict that you've covered.
Jeremy Bowen
Something like
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Yeah.
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Twentieth.
Presenter
Why do you keep going back?
Jeremy Bowen
I think if I've got any credibility with the people who've watched what I've done and listened and read what I've done over the years, it's the feeling that I've actually seen it for myself. I'm not looking at a screen and extracting someone else's thoughts. I'm actually going there myself. And so I'm a big believer in the value for everybody of eyewitness journalism, which is what I try and do.
Presenter
It's time for your first desk. What have you chosen and why?
Jeremy Bowen
Let's Stay Together, Al Green, because it reminds me of Sarajevo, the war in in Bosnia. We had an office in the Sarajevo T V station.
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And there was a road connecting the hotel and the T V station, which was known as Sniper Alley because of all the snipers. I had this bulletproof Land Rover and I would drive it. There was a backway, but it became too tedious to go that way. So I'd drive down the main road, and I had a cassette of Al Green. And if I put on this track and drove at the correct pace,
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I could get from the TV station to the Holiday Inn and just as I was pulling up and parking in the underground car park it was in.
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Mm
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I'm so in love with you.
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Whatever you want
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Is it alright with me?
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Yeah.
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Make me feel
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Right.
Presenter
Al Green and Let's Stay Together. An incredibly smooth track, Jeremy. It's now got, in my mind, the most stressful backdrop to it that you can imagine.
Jeremy Bowen
It used to relax me, I think. Probably it was uh a good therapy as you drove along thinking, Well, I hope I'm not gonna get shot.
Presenter
Let's go back to the beginning then, Jeremy Bowen. You were born in Cardiff. Your mother, Jennifer, was a press photographer, and your father, Gareth, was a journalist for BBC Wales. It sounds like it was much more than a nine to five job for him.
Jeremy Bowen
For him it was something he lived and breathed the whole time. And he used to do I remember before he joined the BBC he was in newspapers. And one of my lasting memories when I was a kid is going to sleep with the sound of his typewriter, his manual typewriter, bashing away on the dining room table.
Presenter
Your father covered the Abervan disaster in nineteen sixty six when a landslide of coal waste crashed into a small Welsh mining village. It killed one hundred and sixteen children and twenty eight adults who were in their classrooms on that day. You were only six, the same age as some of the children who died. Do you have any memories of that time?
Jeremy Bowen
Well, my memories of Abervan were
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My father going off, disappearing for a few days and coming back with his trousers caked in this black slurry that had come down from the tip onto the village and onto the school. Then he slept in the middle of the day for ages because he was exhausted. I think they'd been up for a couple of nights. And it was something which for him was so close to home because that was you know where he grew up and his dad worked at the steel works but you know his grandfather had been a coal miner and it was something that I think he felt very deeply.
Presenter
And as we've heard, your mother Jennifer was a press photographer, which must have been quite an unusual job for a woman back then. What was she like?
Jeremy Bowen
She had come from um quite a middle class background and she'd gone into photography. She'd been apprenticed to a local photographer in Hereford, and then had got this job on the Merthyr Express, the local paper. And she was actually working with another woman, which was again in the late fifties pretty unusual. I'd imagine the South Wales valleys.
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quite a traditional patriarchal society.
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She always was a photographer. She kept going, even with five kids. But I don't think she ever particularly.
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thought of herself as being a trailblazer or anything like that. She wanted to be a photographer and that was the way that was the job that she got.
Presenter
Time to make some room for the music. Your second choice today. What is it?
Jeremy Bowen
Well, it's Elgar's second symphony, and I've chosen this'cause it does remind me of my father. He was the most musical person of
Jeremy Bowen
My parents and in our family used to sing in a choir.
Jeremy Bowen
And I do remember him talking about this particular symphony. He said, look.
Jeremy Bowen
Listen to the music, he said. Listen to the there's some melancholy in it as well. It was I think it was first played in 1911. Think about that Edwardian period. Think about someone bowling at Lourdes in the, you know, in September at the end of the cricket season. Think about what was coming down the road in the First World War. He also asked for the second movement to be played at his funeral. So for me, yeah, it does remind me of my dad.
Presenter
Elgar's Symphony No. Two, performed by the Halle Orchestra, conducted by Sir John Barbaroli.
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Jeremy Bowen, your primary education was at a Roman Catholic boys' school. As a ten-year-old, did you have any career ambitions?
Jeremy Bowen
I remember about that age the teacher going round the class and said well what do you all want to do and everybody said footballer soldier so a few people said astronaut it was the time of the Apollo space missions and I said foreign correspondent I was always a bit weird I never quite fitted in and I didn't even quite know what it was but
Presenter
Awesome.
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What image did you have in your mind? What were you imagining?
Jeremy Bowen
I had an image of a fan turning in the ceiling as I sat on some kind of wicker chair with my typewriter.
Jeremy Bowen
I think that was probably a maybe, I don't know, in my memory now, there was probably a glass of whiskey, but probably not when I was ten.
Presenter
After university you joined the BBC as a news trainee, and in nineteen eighty five you were sent to Belfast for your first assignment. This was during the final years of the Troubles. What types of stories did you cover?
Jeremy Bowen
Of course, they didn't let me near any sec for very few security stories. I did things like
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new polar bear at Belfast Sioux and
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Alpha Su and
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And one of my colleagues, David Shutman, who'd been there a year before me, said, don't sit down, because it gives the wrong impression. You've got to look like you're ready for action. So the first two weeks they didn't let me do anything and they'd say, why don't you sit down? I said, I can't sit down. I'm ready to go. Pacing around the office. Pacing round the office like a caged tiger.
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Pacing around the office.
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There was one particular story where you learned to narrow the distance between yourself and what was happening.
Jeremy Bowen
The program editor who was a
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At that time he was a martinette. He wasn't a nice wasn't nice to me anyway. And he said he want they wanted me to get hold of I think it was the head of the student union at Queen's University.
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And I was phoning and of course no mobile phones, so I was leaving messages all over the place and he can't say have you found that guy yet?
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I said not yet.
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So then I went to get my lunch.
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Fish and chips
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He said, Have you found that guy yet?
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I said, Not yet, but I've left messages He said, I don't bloody well care. Do you know where the Student Union is? I said, No. He said, About five minutes from here. So I walked in there, I found the individual, booked him, walked back, and my fish and chips were still warm.
Jeremy Bowen
So, that to me was a really important lesson, which is narrow the distance between yourself and the story, and I still believe in that.
Presenter
It's time for your next piece of music, Jeremy Bowen. What's it gonna be?
Jeremy Bowen
Rachmaninov's second piano concerto.
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Quite a lot of my choices remind me of things which I found positive in bad moments. And I first heard this piece of music, or a fragment of it, after the terrible tragedy of the Lockerbie attacks, where a jumber jet came down on this Scottish town.
Jeremy Bowen
In nineteen eighty eight.
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I went up there to cover it. We set up our office in the upstairs room of a one of the pubs in the town, and there was an old piano in the corner, and one of my colleagues played
Jeremy Bowen
The very famous piano refrain from
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Rat Maninov's second piano concerto. And I said, Blimey, that's nice. What's that? He said, Haven't you heard it? It's really famous. And so when I got home,
Jeremy Bowen
I bought a C D and I listened to it and actually now I preferred the third piano concerto but this was my way into Ratmaninov and all his other works.
Presenter
Ratmaninoff's piano concerto Number two in C minor performed by Vladimir Ashkenazi with the London Symphony Orchestra conducted by Andrei Previn.
Presenter
Jeremy Bowen, in nineteen eighty nine you travelled to Central America to cover the civil war in El Salvador. Now you refer to that as your first war, but you you had been to Afghanistan by then in in'89. Why was it the first one?
Jeremy Bowen
Well, it was the first one when they were shooting. It was the first one when I heard shots fired in anger. The first one where I found myself grovelling in the gutter.
Jeremy Bowen
It s was so vivid and it was like uh it was like being in my own war movie.
Presenter
What was your attitude to risk at that point?
Jeremy Bowen
I had no idea what it was, in a way.
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The first time I heard shots and I was and they were near me, I was excited, I think. I was very excited. And then the first
Presenter
Vivid is an interesting word to use. It's that adrenaline, everything is like.
Jeremy Bowen
Oh, everything it's like the volume has been turned up on life. And I at that age, you know, I was twenty nine years old, twenty eight years old, something like that. And
Jeremy Bowen
I felt indestructible. I mean that later on changed. But at the time that was very much how I felt.
Presenter
The material that you capture in those dangerous places can be very graphic. Is it difficult to decide how much we at home should see?
Jeremy Bowen
Yeah, I've had a long conversation over the years with the editors back in London.
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about how much to show.
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And the way that cultural norms work in in this country and practice in the the news business, we don't show that much.
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We don't show the impact of high explosive on bodies much. You know, we blob out faces now because
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People think that that somehow is more dignified for the the person concerned. I don't agree with that myself. I think it takes something away from them. So it's a long conversation I've had. I've had, you know, sometimes calm, sometimes you've got to be bloody joking. You know, we've been out all day getting this material and you're not going to show that.
Jeremy Bowen
Having seen what it looks like when a shell lands in a crowd of people, I'm not saying we should show all of that. But sometimes I do feel that we pull our punches a bit. But it's a debate we have, and it goes on.
Presenter
Jeremy, we've got to make some time for the music next. It's your fourth choice to day. What is it, and why are you taking it to the island?
Jeremy Bowen
America, Simon and Garfunkel on family trips, used to play Simon and Garfunkel quite a lot, still doing the car. And I went to university as a postgraduate graduate school in the US. And I remember one trip particularly. I'd been to see a friend in Chicago and it was the winter. I was on a Greyhound bus going back overnight to Washington DC where I was a student. And I bought myself a Walkman, well a kind of imitation Walkman, and I had a Simon and Garfunkel cassette. And I remember looking out over the frozen wastes of the Midwest. And this was playing.
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Let us be lovers we'll marry our fortunes together.
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I've got some real estate here in my brain.
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So we've got a pack of cigarettes
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And the shoes went by And walked off to look for one may recall.
Presenter
Simon and Garfunkel and America. Jeremy Bowen, you went to Iraq to report on the first Gulf War in 1991. Not long after you arrived, you covered the aftermath of a bombing by the US military of an air raid shelter in Amariya, a district in Baghdad. You were one of the first reporters on the scene. What had happened?
Jeremy Bowen
Well, they made a terrible mistake. I don't think they they set out to kill so many civilians, but they put
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A bomb in through the roof, it was thick concrete and steel, and that made a hole, and then they put another bomb in through the hole.
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which basically killed everybody, almost everybody inside. So for hours I watched them pulling out
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burnt bodies, bits of bodies, and it was women and kids, old men, and surrounding it were lots of men, fathers mostly, who had got into the habit of taking their families there, thinking they'd be safe every evening, then going back to look after their houses. And then what was the
Jeremy Bowen
I was really gobsmacked actually because then when I was on air talking about it and we had just started to do live rolling news at that point at the BBC, I was asked by Peter Sissons, I was describing what had happened, and he said
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Well, in London the MOD and in the States the Pentagon are saying that it was a military command centre.
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Something clicked in in my head and I said, Look, I can only go by what I have seen with my own eyes and I have seen the bodies. I've seen no soldiers. I've seen no evidence of being able to go around the whole place.
Presenter
And your report attracted strong criticism from the Pentagon and the MOD for going against what they were saying they believed about what had happened. I think one British newspaper even compared you to the Nazi propagandist, Lord Hawai. What did the piece say?
Jeremy Bowen
Lord Horhaw reborn in Baghdad. Big picture of me, small picture of him, comparing me to someone who was executed for treason. Well it was I opened and shut the libel. So I got some money out of it. I was more concerned about the fact that it was an egregious libel against
Presenter
Against
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Reputational damage was settled in the end.
Presenter
And what about the effect on you of having your integrity questioned in that way?
Jeremy Bowen
I didn't think, Oh my God, what if I did get it wrong? because I knew I was right, because I'd been there and I'd seen it, so I had no doubts in my own mind that my journalism was good.
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Not many years later, I met a general.
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British general who'd been at the MOD at the time.
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And I asked him about that, he said, Yes. He said, You were right and we were wrong.
Presenter
Jeremy Bowen, we've got to make room for the music. This is your fifth choice today. What are we going to hear next and why?
Jeremy Bowen
I spent a year as a postgraduate at university in Italy, in Bologna. I shared a a flat with three guys who are still great friends of mine. Belgian, a Dutchman, and a Swede sounds like a joke. And a Welshman. And
Jeremy Bowen
One of the things that students did in Bologna at that time was there was a great opera house, the Teatro Comunale, and you could get subsidized season tickets, and they would have a
Jeremy Bowen
Quite a lot of intervals, and we would have a bottle of the local sparkling wine, which is called pinoletto, in every interval. So we're quite, we enjoyed it no end. We had a great time. And so from Laboem, Piccini's Laboem, Osuave Fantula, which is one of the great songs of opera.
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Let's receive
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O Suave Fantula from Puccini's Labo M., performed by Placido Domingo and Montserrat Caballier, with the London Philharmonic Orchestra, conducted by Sir George Shorty.
Presenter
Jeremy Boyen, in two thousand your friend and colleague Abed Takush was killed in Lebanon while you were working on an assignment together.
Presenter
Tell me what happened that day.
Jeremy Bowen
The Israelis were leaving South Lebanon after a very long occupation.
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And Abed, who was uh
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Driver Fixer.
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And myself and the cameraman, Malik Kanan, were covering the story.
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And villages which had been under Israeli control by then for more than twenty years suddenly opened up again and there was rejoicing, people throwing rice, it was like a wedding, they were so happy that the Israelis had gone.
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So it probably lulled us into a bit of a false sense of security, because we were keeping well back from the retreating Israeli army, or thought we were.
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But the road winds along the border wire between Lebanon and Israel.
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And so we stopped uh and I thought
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Let's do a piece of camera overlooking Israel and to be honest, it was sli I didn't have much to say, but it was a kind of whimsical thought because at the time I I was living in Jerusalem.
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And I just thought it was sort of
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interesting thing to do. And I got out with Malik.
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And we walked about 50 yards away. Normally Albert would have got out of the car too, but he was on the phone talking to his son.
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And behind me there was this enormous explosion and I spun round and Malik was filming, so there's video of it, I've seen it.
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And I saw, first of all, the grass was on fire, the miles went up, and I saw the car was
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pouring smoke and flame. They'd fired a tank shell into the back of it. And very short range, because we were very near the border wire. Subsequently we found it was about a kilometre.
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And Abed was in the driving seat on the left and he he somehow forced his way out. He was on fire, his clothes were on fire, out of the car and slumped down onto the road and we couldn't see him from where we were. So I said to Malik, let's get up there. And Malik said, Don't go up there, Jeremy. Abed is dead now.
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or he's going to die any any second, and if we go up there they'll kill us.
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I know this to be true because
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The team from the Times were on the other side and listening into the radio traffic and they heard one of the Israelis say
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We've got we've got one of them, we'll get the other two with the machine gun.
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So after a while I said, Malik, I can't stand this. I stuck my nose up. We were hiding behind a building.
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and they immediately opened up with a heavy machine gun. We were stuck there for a couple of hours.
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My partner Julia was running the BBC operation in Lebanon, at the time she was also a journalist working for the BBC, and they had news of bodies on the road.
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And Malik had managed to get a call out, but he hadn't mentioned
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before the battery went, that I was safe as well, so for a while they thought I was dead too. Uh and you know, Julia was pregnant with our first kid.
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So
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I mean, looking back, and it was a terrible, terrible day. And then
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The next day I went to Beirut, I went to the funeral.
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the traditional Sunni family. I was sitting outside with the men in the courtyard.
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And then the message came down they'd like to talk to the women upstairs, so I went up.
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Explain what had happened.
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No, it was uh it was an
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It was a awful, awful day and I and I do I feel I bear some responsibility because I decided to stop. However, had we kept going, they might have killed us all in the car. You know, the thing was, his family, their
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The women wore headscarves, they were believing Muslims, they said, you know, it was God's will.
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But I can't help thinking that maybe I made a bad mistake that day. And so but that's something.
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you know, I've got to deal with.
Presenter
Let's take a break for some music, Jeremy.
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Tell me about your next track.
Jeremy Bowen
It's memories of Baghdad during the war of 1991. There were three of us in our office. My esteemed BBC colleague Alan Little, good friend. Rory Peck was the cameraman. Rory had a knackered old cassette player with about three home recorded tapes. It was all the music we had. And in the evening, when we'd more or less finished and we were trying to cook something on a horrible primer stove and bombing was going on outside, the windows were shaking, you could see the tracer. And we'd play this music. And the one I liked best of Rory's crap collection of tapes was the Brahms German Requiem, and particularly the section where it's all flesh is grass.
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Yeah.
Jeremy Bowen
It's uh it's a quote from the Bible. And Rory was killed in an attempted coup in Moscow a couple of years after that. So when I hear this, and I I actually play it quite a bit, it does remind me of
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That time.
Presenter
Brahm's German Requiem, the Berlin Philharmonic Orchestra conducted by Herbert von Karrion.
Presenter
Jeremy Bowen, you have been shot in the course of your work. Many of your colleagues have been killed reporting from war zones, as we've heard. Others have gone on to suffer from poor mental health, been unable to sustain relationships, developed substance abuse problems to help them cope with what they've witnessed. How have you coped?
Jeremy Bowen
I think I'm
Jeremy Bowen
Reasonably well adjusted. I think I'm able to see things in context. There have been some very difficult moments, you know. I ended up with a few years ago with some very severe depression. I took time off work, I took meds. I think you've got to count your blessings in life and not get too tied up in things. And I had cancer a few years ago and touch wood. I've been in remission now for four and a half years, and it was quite a serious tumor. So I think that has also helped me get a sense of perspective on life because I've always been a fairly glass half full rather than half empty person, and that maybe changed for a while. And I think actually.
Jeremy Bowen
Having had cancer.
Jeremy Bowen
brought back the more optimistic Jeremy.
Presenter
Jeremy, you talked about shifts in perspective and I know that fatherhood was a major one for you. That was a turning point. How did it change your outlook becoming a parent? Your kids are grown up now.
Jeremy Bowen
By the time I became a dad I was
Jeremy Bowen
Only a couple of days short of my 41st birthday, so the changes were very much appreciated. I wanted to have a different kind of life. I had spent, you know, years staying out late and boozing and doing all those sorts of things. And I was very happy to stay at home and cook things for the kids. And my only regret is that I probably wasn't there as often as I would like to have been or should have been because of the way my job took me away. And sometimes I would break my neck to get back by, say, Friday night, so I could be there over the weekend, even if I was going away on the Monday or Tuesday. I'd sit down with the kids when they were small to watch something on TV and I'd fall asleep. They'd hate that.
Jeremy Bowen
So I then learned, and Julia said to me, you know, there's just no point.
Jeremy Bowen
In you coming back and falling asleep on the sofa, have a rest, come back and be back properly. You know, be in the moment.
Presenter
Uh
Jeremy Bowen
It's time s
Presenter
Some more music, Jeremy. What's your next choice?
Jeremy Bowen
When I was
Jeremy Bowen
A small kid, we lived in part of Cardiff called Whitchurch, and my dad had this gramophone. And they had a whole lot of records, a lot of them were 78s from the 50s. But they did buy a copy of Hard Day's Night, which we played no end. And I always remember the smell of that. You lifted the lid of the gramophone, and they had this smell of dust and green bays that was on the inside, and probably a bit of wood or something, and you'd turn it on, and there'd be this thrum as the valves inside warmed up. And I haven't actually chosen something from Hard Days' Night. I've chosen In My Life by the Beatles because it reminds me of that time when I was a kid, and I like listening to it. And it sounds like it's been written by someone of my age. But in fact, they wrote it when they were about 25.
Speaker 4
There are places I remember
Jeremy Bowen
Cause I'm not
Speaker 4
All my life, though some have changed.
Speaker 4
Forever, not for better
Speaker 4
Some have gone and some remain All these places have their moments
Jeremy Bowen
This is at the moment.
Speaker 4
Lovers and friends, I still can recall Some are dead and some are living
Presenter
The Beatles and In My Life. Jeremy Boyen, you've seen so much of the worst that the world has to offer. I wonder where you find joy, fun, relief, all those other things.
Jeremy Bowen
The world
Jeremy Bowen
Relief. Well, all those other things. I'm very interested in food and wine, cooking. I have a large wine cellar. I've got more wine than I'll probably ever be able to drink. And so, no, I like a lot of my leisure thoughts revolve around what are we going to eat next. And I like going back to Italy and back to Bologna, which is
Jeremy Bowen
one of the great centers of cuisine.
Presenter
Now you know where you're off to next though, Jeremy Bowen. You are off to the island. I'm imagining that you will take its challenges in your stride, but but how will you prepare for the journey? Because I know
Jeremy Bowen
Um
Jeremy Bowen
I think
Presenter
That you do like to be as prepared as you can for a new challenge.
Jeremy Bowen
I've been to a few remote places, but I was I haven't been on my own in them.
Jeremy Bowen
I think I could probably use branches and make a shelter, maybe string a few together and make a raft to go to a neighbouring island or out into the trackless wastes of the sea. And I hope I'd be resourceful and try and keep myself going.
Presenter
We'll let you have one more track before we send you there and we find out.
Presenter
What's it going to be? Your last choice today?
Jeremy Bowen
When I first came to live in London,
Jeremy Bowen
I lived in North London when I was a student. Then I was abroad for a few years and I came back and temporarily moved to South London.
Jeremy Bowen
That's about 40 years ago, and I'm still there. I think Ray Davis was from Muswell Hill, so
Presenter
North London Bath
Jeremy Bowen
He's a North London lad, yeah the Kinks is the North London band but I'm choosing as my final record Waterloo Sunset by the Kinks because there isn't one called Camberwell Sunset where I live but Waterloo is quite close.
Presenter
Thinks is l
Speaker 4
Dirty old river must just keep rolling, floating into the night.
Speaker 4
Even so busy, make me feel dizzy, taxi lights shine so bright.
Speaker 4
But I don't need no friends.
Speaker 4
As long as I case a wan to this
Presenter
The Kinks and Waterloo Sunsets. So, Jeremy Bowen, I'm going to send you away to the island now. I'm giving you the Bible, the complete works of Shakespeare, and you can take one other book. What would you like?
Jeremy Bowen
Well, I'd like a bumper edition, I know they exist, you wouldn't have to bind it specially, of uh George Orwell.
Presenter
Evol.
Jeremy Bowen
Not that relaxing, but immensely stimulating.
Presenter
The collected works of George Orwell, it is then, they're yours. You can also have a luxury item. What would you like?
Jeremy Bowen
I thought about choosing my wine cellar, but I thought it's not that portable and I wouldn't get anything done. So I recently bought myself a manual typewriter at a charity shop, a portable one. So I'd like to take that with paper, ribbons, tipx, and I'll try and maybe write that novel that I've been meaning to write and haven't quite got around to yet.
Presenter
And finally, which one track of the eight that you've shared with us today would you save from the waves?
Jeremy Bowen
I'd go with the Algar Second Symphony, so I'll be transported back to Edwardian London when I listen to it.
Presenter
Jeremy Bowen, thank you very much for letting us hear your Desert Island discs.
Jeremy Bowen
Been a great pleasure.
Presenter
I hope you enjoyed my conversation with Jeremy. Perhaps the sound of his typewriter will bring back some happy childhood memories. We've cast away many other correspondents, including Jeremy's colleagues Lise Dussette and John Simpson. Alex Crawford and Christina Lam are in our back catalogue too. You can find their episodes in our Desert Island Discs programme archive and through BBC Sounds. The studio manager for today's programme was Emma Hart, the assistant producer was Christine Pavlovsky, and the producer was Paula McGinley. Next time, my guest will be the poet Claudia Rankin. I do hope you'll join us.
Jeremy Bowen
Hello, I'm Jeremy Bowen, the BBC's international editor. For nearly 40 years, I've been reporting from some of the most complex and dangerous places in the world. In my new 10-part series, Frontlines of Journalism, I'm taking you to some of the most difficult stories I've had to cover. Six mortar rounds landed in or around the graveyard.
Jeremy Bowen
Get a bit emotional about it actually. To look at the obstacles that get in the way of the truth and how journalists like me navigate around them. It is never definitive.
Speaker 4
We can have this argument.
Speaker 2
German
Jeremy Bowen
Journalists tend to argue. Every word that comes out of your mouth is a form of opinion.
Speaker 2
If the world saw the world would react.
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Why do you keep going back to cover conflicts?
I think if I've got any credibility with the people who've watched what I've done and listened and read what I've done over the years, it's the feeling that I've actually seen it for myself. I'm not looking at a screen and extracting someone else's thoughts. I'm actually going there myself. And so I'm a big believer in the value for everybody of eyewitness journalism, which is what I try and do.
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What was your attitude to risk when you covered your first war?
I had no idea what it was, in a way. The first time I heard shots and I was and they were near me, I was excited, I think. I was very excited. ... I felt indestructible. I mean that later on changed. But at the time that was very much how I felt.
Presenter asks
What effect did having your integrity questioned in that way have on you?
I didn't think, Oh my God, what if I did get it wrong? because I knew I was right, because I'd been there and I'd seen it, so I had no doubts in my own mind that my journalism was good.
Presenter asks
How have you coped with the trauma of your work over the years?
I think I'm reasonably well adjusted. I think I'm able to see things in context. There have been some very difficult moments, you know. I ended up with a few years ago with some very severe depression. I took time off work, I took meds. I think you've got to count your blessings in life and not get too tied up in things. And I had cancer a few years ago and touch wood. I've been in remission now for four and a half years, and it was quite a serious tumor. So I think that has also helped me get a sense of perspective on life because I've always been a fairly glass half full rather than half empty person, and that maybe changed for a while. And I think actually having had cancer brought back the more optimistic Jeremy.
“It used to relax me, I think. Probably it was a good therapy as you drove along thinking, Well, I hope I'm not gonna get shot.”
“My father going off, disappearing for a few days and coming back with his trousers caked in this black slurry that had come down from the tip onto the village and onto the school.”
“I felt indestructible. I mean that later on changed. But at the time that was very much how I felt.”
“I was really gobsmacked actually because then when I was on air talking about it and we had just started to do live rolling news at that point at the BBC, I was asked by Peter Sissons, I was describing what had happened, and he said ... Something clicked in in my head and I said, Look, I can only go by what I have seen with my own eyes and I have seen the bodies.”
“I do feel I bear some responsibility because I decided to stop. However, had we kept going, they might have killed us all in the car.”